Exams are finally done. I found out that I hadn't done as bad as I thought. Even though my mind was blank, somehow my hand remembered the right answers... well, at least most of the time it did.

 

So sitting down, I decide to finally watch "The Devil Wears Prada" DVD that I borrowed from a friend some months ago.

 

Grabing some chowder, and a blankie, I popped in the disc and pressed play before settling down on the sofa. It's just another chick flick, but I haven't watched one of those in ages. Watching one now, in the middle of the night, is actually a bit lonely.

 

I watch Anne Hathaway's character, and at the begining, I think, well, she isn't dressed that badly. I really felt like I knew nothing about fashion. Well, it's true, I do know nothing about fashion. I mean, you just have to look at my closet. It's not just last season's clothing, it's more like, prehistoric!

 

*Note to self: must put fashion sense into brain as part of social must haves.*

 

You know, I really do agree with her choices up until she turned away from that job. She was smart, and beautiful, and very resourceful. All she needed was to climb higher before she could take over the top. It's true that they say "the top is lonely" but arent those just people who don't have the ability and don't know how to grab onto the rigth chances to be the best? I mean, who needs friends?

 

Okay, real good friends like those in the movies, yeah. Everyone needs those. But be realistic. How many of those are there? The joke of having someone who's always there for you and such! Oh, that's hardly ever going to come true unless you're hiring that person with money. And even then it's difficult - one in a thousand difficult - to find the perfect employee - and we are not even talking about how much you would have to pay for someone as amazing as that! The person who has the "I shouldn't, that's my friend" ghost haunting them should find an exterminator, AND FAST! Either that or you will soon find out who your friends really are - normal people. They are not some super hero who will come to your rescue, nor will they let you become the road block to their success, so why should you? Besides, even you, the kind, naive, and innocent, are not so wonderful as to put everyone else's problems before your own. Or else, why would you want a friend who'll "always be there for you" in the first place? If such really exists, wouldn't it be you, so wouldn't you BE that friend?

 

However, I think that simple happiness is the only happiness in the end. After all, where will you go after reaching the top? For the you who has been chasing after some goal or other endlessly to suddenly be without one, how would it feel? The aimlessness, and emptiness. And you look, at the girl who has chosen that simple happiness that you gave up, and you think just how brave and courageous she is. To trust after being betrayed, to love after having lost, but most of all, to be able to wear her heart on her sleeves, out in the open, just like that.

 

Isolated, at the very top, you know, that THAT is happiness, and THAT is something you will never have, because you, who chose this path, will always choose this path many times again.

 

Black and white subtitles fill the screen, so I press the eject button. Drained of everything, my head feels lighter and ready for the nothingness that is sleep.

 

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^^ And a good night to my readers!! Well, as usual, you know where to send your comments (not here)! And if you don't start reading from chapter one! Okay, ta ta~